Showing posts with label truth. Show all posts
Showing posts with label truth. Show all posts

Monday, June 2, 2014

The Light of The World Church

I was always a believer in Joseph Smith’s quote:  “Mormonism is truth…The first and fundamental principle of our holy religion is, that we believe that we have a right to embrace all, and every item of truth, without limitation or … being … prohibited by the creeds or superstitious notions of men.”

Actually accepting this always put me on the Liberal end of Mormonism, as I was willing to talk to anyone and go to any church. I felt I could learn just as much about God in a Buddhist temple as in an LDS sacrament meeting.

I visited just about every kind of religion you can imagine, but one of the most interesting experiences came when visiting La Iglesia Luz del Mundo [The Church of the Light of the World].

Small Placard in Salt Lake City

Their building was half a block from my SLC apartment. Late one night I was walking and I saw people coming in and out of the church, at 10 p.m. It was not Christmas or any other common Christian holiday.

From my apartment window I could see the church and checked periodically. By the time I went to bed they were still there, it was after midnight. This was curious to me to say the least.

The next day I walked by the church to see when services were. They have services  every day, 3 times a day. I decided to go to one that night at 8 p.m.

I want to press into the mind of the reader that this was a most curious experience which included many strange things visually and audibly and in just about every way, I will do my best to describe all of these details. Also an important note the church was entirely in Spanish (I am fluent). I was the only white guy present. This is significant in terms of culture and customs.

First, appearances: this building is a historic building in Salt Lake City, it even has the plaque marking it as a historic site. However, the lettering, billboards and decorations are painfully anachronistic and cheap looking (see picture of the name of the church for example).The letters are cheap black and white letters that are normally used on the windows of office buildings. And the letters are not even put on straight. Most American’s would find it unbearably tacky.



The juxtaposition of historic architecture and some tacky not perfectly straight lettering

The inside had the same anachronistic mixing of beautiful, turn of the century Gothic (and Romanesque) architecture, with tacky plastic lettering and fake flowers. They have a very ostentatious display, almost like the Vatican with a large gold chair and red carpet, but everything was so obviously plastic and fake it just came across as tacky (see pictures).

The ornate front of the church. The throne and fake flowers are just tacky. Notice the screen projector on top of the pipes. The organ is not used. Names and lettering on each side (also unevenly spaced).

Notice the date on the pillar: 6 April 1926

This symbol is throughout the church, not really sure what it means.

From the pictures you will likely also notice some other curious things (at least I did). If you look closely under the two names written down the pillars you will see two dates. Under Samuel, February 14, 2014, under Aaron, April 6, 1926. April 6? I wondered what the significance was. As it turns out, after talking to some members after the meeting I found out that April 6 1926 is the year the church was, listen closely, “restored.”

I asked, “Aaron formed your church on April 6?”

“No, we believe that Christ formed the church, Aaron was just called as an Apostle to restore the church.”
Sound familiar? Well if you ever taught the missionary lessons it should. It was uncanny how similar the language they used was to that which I used on my mission.

Apparently, the Apostle of Jesus Christ, Aaron Joaquin “restored” the Church on April 6, 1926 down in Mexico during a time of religion upheaval. He was persecuted for his beliefs, but he still kept preaching and stuck to his belief. He started a small congregation that grew and was ostracized by their neighbors. They were persecuted and even driven out until they formed their own city in rural Mexico. They built their city centered around the temple, a large ornate building they eventually built (not making this stuff up). Their temples are now throughout Mexico, Central America, South America, and a few in the United States.
As I learned more of the history, multiple times I felt like pinching myself and saying out loud, “Is this for real?” It was definitely a twilight zone experience. I felt like I was meeting Mormonism’s younger, Mexican brother. 

A picture of the main temple of La Luz Del Mundo church in Mexico.

I did feel like the cult of the leader was perhaps even stronger than in Mormonism. The other date on the wall, 14 of February, is the birthday of Aaron’s successor, Samuel. “Why 2014?” I asked. “Because that was the most recent celebration of it (strange, I know, maybe the guy is sensitive about his age).” So it turns out that the current Apostle’s birthday is basically the biggest festival they have (a little narcissistic perhaps?). These posters pictured below were outside recently (as it turns out Samuel began his ministry in 1964). Also, and most interestingly, what was the reason for them being there all night long?

Despite the fact of that they meet three times a day; they do not usually stay all night. What was the occasion? “The apostle of God is sick.” Yes that is right Samuel Joaquin had the flu or something, and so these people were doing 24-hour all-day all-night prayer sessions for him. People would leave to go to work, and they would sort of “take shifts” during the night, but there were people praying (and a lot more as you will soon see) all night long. Wow I thought, that is dedication, or at the very least, insanity. I am not sure when exactly Mr. Joaquin got better (I did not bother to check up), but one thing I am pretty sure of is that a lot of other people got sick from lack of sleep.

A poster recently outside the church. It says: "Apostle of Jesus Christ, Samuel Joaquin Flores, The Church in Salt Lake City, Utah, celebrates 50 years of communion apostolic anniversary."
Okay to the meeting. It was instantly apparent that it was an extremely conservative church. The congregation was separated by gender, women on one side (the speaker’s left) and men on the other. The women were all very modestly dressed. This was not like Mormon women who sometimes “push the limit” and show their knee caps or even (gasp!) some thigh. These women were covered quite literally head to foot. They all covered their hair with a sort of scarf and wore ankle-length dresses. Obviously no sleeveless dresses were around. There were none of the spicy Latina girls you would meet at the Catholic Church wearing miniskirts and low-cut tops. Not at all. Anyways enough about the women!

They read a letter from the “Apostle” about how he was under the weather and needed their support. They even put the letter up onto the projector screen (you can see the projector screen in the picture, but the screen is up).  After this there were three or four people who spoke. What was curious was that at the end of every speaker’s talk they would get super emotional and start to cry. Not only would they cry, but people in the audience would also start crying and appearing as if they were in emotional trauma. Some would even approach the stand and prostrate on the ground as if in pain. But all the emotion was so obviously fake. As soon as the speaker was done he would go down and start talking to someone (I would watch them) and they were perfectly fine, no tears or emotion in their face at all.

All speakers spoke way too long, and all were over-the-top ridiculously emotional. This was like Fast and Testimony meeting times 500 on the fake-emotion scale. At least in Fast and Testimony meeting some speakers show genuine emotion, and lots don’t cry at all. But here it was every single speaker.

Then it was time for a song. I like singing. I picked up the hymn book, turned to the song, stood up with the rest of the congregation (which is what they do apparently), and began singing along with them. I did not know the tune, but luckily neither did anyone else. It is against their religion to use musical instruments (they have the organ because it is a historic building and they can’t take it out), so everyone just sings whatever, but most Latinos do not have formal musical training, so it was pretty bad to say the least. And it gets worse.

These people sing. I mean they sing. They made that annoying guy in sacrament meeting who sings two decibels above the rest of the congregation combined seem like a muted sheep. These guys belted it out like there was an air-raid and they needed to warn their neighbor three blocks away. It was incredible. I actually liked it (as it turns out I am that annoying guy in sacrament meeting, so for once I fit right in). However, about half way through the song I noticed something strange.  I heard what sounded like dying cats. I also noticed the song was getting quieter. I looked around trying to figure out where the sound was coming from. I noticed some members had stopped singing and were crying out as if overcome with emotion. They had even fallen to their knees on the floor. Others had gone into the aisle way and were basically lying on the ground crying and moaning almost as loud as they had sung.

As the song progressed, so did the number who switched from singing to crying. It was like there was a sniper picking people off from the balcony. Pretty soon everyone was down for the count. Everyone except me of course. There I was, already singled out because I was the only tall white guy, but now I was the only person standing and singing. I was not going to fall down and start crying in fake emotion, so I just stood there alone and sang. Not knowing the song didn’t help. It was awkward to say the least.

After the song was over, everyone returned to their seats, and it was like nothing had happened. The tears gone, no pain or emotion were left on the faces.

And you can’t end a meeting any better than that.

I stayed and talked to a few people. One missionary guy talked to me about their beliefs. But after talking for all of 30 seconds I realized that, though he tried to make it a discussion, there was no room for questioning. What he said was the truth, no matter what.

I left the building feeling like I had left this weird wormhole out of the modern world. Then I remembered all the similarities between Mormonism. This really was Mormonism’s younger Mexican brother. Samuel Joaquin is basically their Brigham Young (likely with quite a few similarities).  I used to wonder what it would be like to live during the early days of the church. Perhaps now I knew.


I had shiver run down my spine. I was glad it was over and I will never again have to sing a made up tune A Capella in the middle of bunch of crying Hispanics. Praise Samuel Joaquin! 

Saturday, May 31, 2014

My Joseph Smith Story: A letter to my family

“I have learned for myself that Presbyterianism is not true (Joseph Smith History 1: 20).” This line is one that is brushed over when people tell the Joseph Smith story. I also had not really thought of the significance of it until recent years, but I have thought upon it much in the past months.

What makes it so incredible is not what is said, as what is not said. Here was a young boy, 15 years old, going to his mother and telling her that he had discovered the religion she belonged to was not true. I find it amazing that Joesph felt comfortable telling her, but even more her lack of negative response. There is no record of yelling, or even confrontation; what is more, it seems Lucy Mack Smith even believed her son.
I cannot hope to possibly have the same level of understanding and support that Joseph Smith experienced from his family as I reveal this story, but I would ask that you proportion me at least some level of the understanding that must have been in Lucy Mack Smith’s heart that day when Joseph walked in and said, “I have learned for myself that Presbyterianism is not true.”

And so with that confidence in your love for me, I bravely venture forth.

I have learned for myself that Mormonism is not true. It was not an easy thing for me to find out or accept, and I do not expect it to be easy for you to accept that this is where I have arrived, but I promise you it cannot be much harder for you to accept me than it has been for me to accept this most bitter pill.
So the question remains, why have I done this?

Many aspects of Joseph Smith’s story still impress me, in particular his conviction in the face of opposition. Many of his friends and Church leaders he had known turned on him, but he stood by his convictions. “Why persecute me for telling the truth? I have actually seen a vision; and who am I that I can withstand God, or why does the world think to make me deny what I have actually seen? For I had seen a vision; I knew it, and I knew that God knew it, and I could not deny it (Joseph Smith History1:25).”

Martin Luther similarly declared in front of the diet of worms, “My conscience is captive… I cannot and will not recant anything, since it is neither safe nor right to go against conscience.”

These men of valor have always impressed me. Regardless of how the world felt about their convictions, they stood by them, for they knew they were right. How could I, pretend to follow them when I was unwilling to do the same thing and stand by my convictions?

It is not in spite of what I was taught growing up in the church, but because of what I was taught that I must make this change in my life. I was taught valor, courage, integrity, honesty, and to value the truth above all else. I cannot and will not step away from those values. I have done so in the past, but I do not want to again and that is why I am writing this letter. That is why I am taking this stand. I don’t want to pretend to believe something I do not. Many probably do, but I am not one of those. I want to live a life of integrity. Of honesty. Of courage. There is nothing courageous about living what you do not believe in because society around you expects it of you. Do what is right let the consequence follow is what I sung, and still believe. There are no ends that justify the means. Honesty and integrity are the keys to happy life and I ask you to help me have those virtues.

Mormonism was for me Truth. That is what it always was. Nothing more, and nothing less. Joseph Smith said, “One of the grand fundamental principles of Mormonism is to receive truth, let it come from whence it may.” Joseph also said, “Mormonism is truth…The first and fundamental principle of our holy religion is, that we believe that we have a right to embrace all, and every item of truth, without limitation or … being … prohibited by the creeds or superstitious notions of men.” Imagine the difficult position my own search for truth placed me in. My search to follow the words of Joseph Smith led me away from all I had known. Isolated me from my family, friends, and loved ones. It has not been easy, and I expect it to get more difficult. But I have known for some time I have needed to make this change, to follow the truth as I perceive it and do what I know is right or to follow societal norms of those around me.

On my mission I taught people to follow the truths I was taught from my childhood, and encouraged them to do what they knew in their hearts were right. I said they should follow the truth even if it meant changing habits, losing friends, and having to sacrifice relationships. These people were willing to leave all that they had known to follow the truth as I gave it to them. While I was on this mission I often wondered if I would have been as courageous as them; if I would have been willing to listen to random Americans and leave everything to follow the truth they taught. I always wondered and now have the opportunity to find out. For I have been “stopped in the streets” so to speak and learned truth. I know it and I know that I know it. I now need to finally decide.

I have put this choice off for far too long and have stayed in limbo for far too long. I want to be honest and open. Despite the many good aspects of the church and its members and the love I have for all those who embrace its creeds, I do not believe in what presently constitutes Mormonism or consider myself a current Mormon. I have made my decision. I have and will continue to seek truth and to follow it. I must finally do what is right and let the consequence follow, regardless of the relationships, friendships, connections, job prospects, or anything else I may lose. I must live a life of integrity. I must live my life to for myself and no one else!

So though I know you may disagree with my actions, at least I think you might be able to concur with my motives and desires to follow my principles and live honestly.

This is the first reason why I am stepping away. But that is not all. Perhaps if it was just that it would seem selfish to some extent. I don’t do this only for myself but also for others.

Stephen Covey has said that having continuity among our core beliefs and actions is a key to success. I concur completely, but it is even more than that, if we rob the world of the greatest gift we can give, namely ourselves.

I can no longer worry about whose sensibilities I am bothering, or what mask I am supposed to be wearing. I have spent far too many years of my life being the person the people around me expected me to be, and not being true to myself. William Shakespeare said, “To thine own self be true.” I have one gift to give this world. One gift alone. I have one life to give this one gift, and I can no longer avoid giving it. That gift is who I am.

This may sound like a cliché “be yourself” and all that. Clichés I have realized (for the most part at least) are statements that everybody knows are true, but nobody (or hardly anyone) understands or follows.

That is the number one reason why I made this decision. I leave with the hope that others in similar dilemmas might find the courage to follow the example I have set. That by doing so they may no longer live with the guilt and shame of being untrue to themselves and others.  

Now I know this letter may be difficult to accept. You may feel overwhelmed or even in shock. Though I truly feel sorry for the pain you are experiencing and can understand it completely, I do not apologize for what I have said. I stand by it. As Martin Luther said, “I cannot and will not recant!”

I thank you for taking the time to read these issues that I have been wanting to express for a very long time. This quote from Joseph Smith may be helpful, as you sort these things out in your mind and heart:

“I want the liberty of believing as I please. It feels so good not to be trammeled. It doesn't prove that a man is not a good man, because he errs in doctrine.” – Joseph Smith

With love and appreciation for all the good things you have done for me throughout my entire life.

I remain your son and brother,


My Real Name